Fear

Today, something occurred to me,
May be I’ve got it, maybe not,
I don’t know….
But it hurts…
Pains to touch, even to laugh,
I’m scared…
What if I die? At least I’ll quit the world.

My friends, I will loose them,
Only the memory will I hold,
I won’t see or hear them…
Will I be able to go on like that?
By then I’ll be dead…Void of suffering.

It might be for the best, for this to occur,
Maybe it’s time for me to go…
Maybe I’ll live anyway… I’ll cure it…
I know I’m strong,
I can live through this…
I can…. I’m positive…

Even if I were to die,
At least I’ll die…..knowing I just had to go.