Sunday 25 November 2007

Hope

There maybe something different
In many ways if hope
I don’t wonder what it maybe
For it can’t be too close.
There was that one day
In which to hold all strong
But days just fly by
Without any hope for the moment,
No matter what I’m doing.
There seems to be a lot, going on
Many seem in wonder,
Why I have stopped, in my way…
To the end,
Oh, it may go forever
I know not, till when.

A Glimpse

When I am over
And my time is out,
I begin to see
What I was not.

There was a time then,
A time when things where clear.
Now all is new,
And things have changes.

Though time ought to change
Things for the go0d,
Some have indeed gone,
Only for the worse.

No one here can feel
What I feel,
For it is too deep to understand
And very tiring it is.

Many days go by
Without a single tear,
When all of a sudden
All is a blur….. till the times’ end.

Someone


Tired are the days the days that I have these days,
Hurt are the feelings I have felt these days.
But, then it all went away, someway
For it all came to me, in different ways, today.

Someone showed me why I should live,
Someone made me want to give.
Someone gave me a reason to live
Because of that someone I am here to stay.

Loneliness went away for miles
And then all my life came to be mine,
I was today with all hearts smiles,
Because that someone was here,
By, my side.

Days

Last, was what it all became.
Be, was something it just happened to seem,
Gone, are the days, the good old days
Come, does time with some too merry.

Seem, to me that is what I do
Go on a road that seems so long,
Where, I go I seem not to know…
Look, for what I want oh so more…

Purpose, I have found, in my way
Stretch out to see, you and me,
Never before long, have I known this will end,
So go, that’s my way, till that day…

Good Bye

Desperate feelings that do come to me,
Yet, how can it all be to me,
The strangeness only occurs some while ago
Of the never ending feelings of years ago.

The timely time gives me time to think,
Of the air’s one of them put up today,
As I like to see “them all,” in one
The departure of that “one,” caused a loss.

Should time heal that wound I made?
Or let it heal from within “itself?”
Anyway all is done for the chosen one
Has gone through without saying a
“Good Bye.”

Accepting

Accepting what I see,
What I hear
And what I fear,
Is scary.

Learning the feeling
That has a depth
Yet is so uncomforting
To the thought.

Feelings are sour,
Every day and night
To the never ending tour,
I will go tonight.

Pain

Always,
Why is it me?
Only a small mistake,
Yet all the fuss,
Can’t make it out, the reason
If there be one.
Can this be the beginning of the end?
Or is there more to all this?
I have not a clue.
Leave me out of it all,
\I hope they would,
Very annoying it is,
All this treatment and the nothing.
Oh, how I feel trapped,
In my own soul of a home…
Let go, I will, if I possibly can,
All this pain on earth.

Miss You

The unusual, the mystic
The calm and the senseless
Nature yet the inner feeling
Come yet go…
Somehow, all is a mess.
A cobweb of feelings, in my head…
I wonder why all this mess,
To sort out, to solve, oh it is hard…
I don’t know what I miss,
Yet, those familiar voices, I know I miss.
My heart jumps two beats a time
To see them, to meet them,
For I miss them…
Maybe they don’t know, maybe they do
It’s somehow, very lonely and my days…
They seem very gloomy, if only I could,
My dream, of, for now, it seems
Is to meet my dears, for I miss them
Very, very much
A wonderful get-together,
A meeting of some sort
That’s all I wish for,
But it is too much…
I have guessed
Lonely though, yet unknown
I need to hear, then to see…
Oh my dears how I long to see you all
If you only knew, how I really really miss.

The “You”

That’s the way of life
That’s the way I live
Sometimes it’s hard
But I manage to live.
Coz there is no point in going on
There’s nothing I can do
But live life as I do
Coz I live for you.

Things come and go
You said you will stay
But that promise was just another word.
I thought I could trust you,
But you gave away,
You are like the others, only talk away.

Nothing seems to come to me,
Only the thought of you
Yet nothing keeps me alive now,
But the mere thought of you.
I hope that I won’t vanish,
For long I hope it will stay,
Many years to come,
For me to live each day.

Let me say I still love you,
For you are who you are.
And I can’t change the being behind your lovely soul.
I only hope you’ll remember me,
For I was once, your undying goal.

Fear

Today, something occurred to me,
May be I’ve got it, maybe not,
I don’t know….
But it hurts…
Pains to touch, even to laugh,
I’m scared…
What if I die? At least I’ll quit the world.

My friends, I will loose them,
Only the memory will I hold,
I won’t see or hear them…
Will I be able to go on like that?
By then I’ll be dead…Void of suffering.

It might be for the best, for this to occur,
Maybe it’s time for me to go…
Maybe I’ll live anyway… I’ll cure it…
I know I’m strong,
I can live through this…
I can…. I’m positive…

Even if I were to die,
At least I’ll die…..knowing I just had to go.