Testing My Patience

What Am I to do when I am hurt??
Cuddle up, hug myself and cry so on one can see me,
Or tell those who hurt me , what I feel?

What am I to do when I see no hope?
Listen to those who say that everything will be alright
Or make my own decision?

What do I do when life is all messed up and I see no way out?
Do I try to sit and untangle it
Or just give up and move on?

Tell me what I should do
Or maybe not do.
Because my patience is tested and
I am running short of hope!

Expectations

They expect me to lie
When am to tell the truth.
They expect me to know everything,
When I am still but young.
They expect me to be strong
and feeling less,
When in reality, I hurt a lot.
What do they want from me?
What do they expect me to be?
Obviously, something that am not!
Anything but me!

Realisation

I see no reason
To go on, feeling what I feel.
There's no hope for the future,
At least, for a future together!

Though I know, however much I say,
I will always have these feelings with me.
Yet, having realized I see it is
Only what I want to see, not the truth!

I was hoping all this time,
Some may call it dreaming.
While in reality, it was never meant to be...
Finally I came to realize, the truth!