Monday, 4 January 2016

My 2015

Over the past few days, as 2015 came to an end and a new year was commencing, I observed quite a large number of people declaring their achievements, lessons learnt, travel details for that year over various platforms of New Media. All these declarations, be it of their personal achievements and experiences or their professional achievements, got me thinking of what I have achieved and learnt from the year. 'What would I want to change about myself, or the way I handled things?' I thought to myself. The fact that this post is late clearly shows this thought process took some time, letting me delve deep into my thoughts and experiences. It also shows that it took me a while to figure out what I will be comfortable sharing on a public forum and what things I will just keep to my lovely self.  

So here's what I feel would be interesting for you to know and perhaps learn from what I believe are both positive and negative experiences in my life from 2015. 

1. Doing a job that makes you happy

In mid 2015 I made a drastic change to my career. I will confess it was neither the easiest decision to make nor was the transition. I had a heap of things to consider when making this decision, but what really got me through was the fact that I was still young enough to make a drastic change in my life. And if all things fail, well I could always go back. The transition, well it was a hurried affair and having to leave my former colleagues was very very difficult. As a result, I still visit them when ever I can. But a hurried transition also meant I had to ensure my work, especially as I was in PR, transitioned smoothly and that none of the work I had planned flopped. Thus, I was very well overworked during this time. 

But I like my new line of work in the field of tertiary education. I also get to engage in a lot of research and perhaps this fits well into my thirst for answers and searching for the 'whys'. 

2. Tomorrow doesn't come

I think it's high time I learnt that 'tomorrows' don't ever come. Looking back, I realised that I have been putting off some very important tasks, thinking I will engage in it in the next-most-available-time. But guess what, that next-most-available-time never came. This doesn't mean I am a slob, that's far from it, but me trying prioritise on the workload led me to behave in this manner. I guess I didn't realise that other commitments could come up during the time I had set up to get this work done. Now, as a result I started a new year, feeling rather unpleasant of this behaviour of mine and with a heap of backlog I suddenly have to see through. 

So my advice, always try to get what you can done today, the moment you can. At least even a little attempt at starting it will help. 

3. Fitness is happiness

Oh jolly! I dare say 2015 has probably been the most fit I have ever been! And this made me happy. Very happy! This vigour for being fit only increased several-fold with my new job as it allowed me to try out and pursue many more sporting activities. As a result, I have happily incorporated swimming and badminton into my weekly fitness schedule. I guess you get the picture that I engage in other activities to keep myself fit ya? ;) 

But it wasn't only the fact that I was being fit that made me happy. I was also bold enough to try out new things. In addition to swimming - something I had wanted to start for quite awhile - I also started dancing. The western-kind. So now I can quite happily dance Ballroom, Jive and the Cha Cha. That too quite a feat in merely a week! So you see why I am happy? And I have decided I kind of want to continue dancing. And dancing too is something I have wanted to do for the longest time and probably the only thing I hadn't engaged in. This feat of trying out new things have also put me in the spot as during the course of 2015 I have had this desire to recommence my martial arts. Words of encouragement from friends who are already engaged in various forms of it, aren't helping my cause. Heh. 

Even though 2015 was an overall fit year, I was not able to be fit during the last month. And I could feel this lack of fitness. So not only was I determined to set this straight before the end of the year but I was equally determined to not let it happen again! 

4. Relationships for the sake of it

This is probably something that has been in my mind for a while, but I guess looking back, 2015 really hit the nail on the head. There were times I got into relationships for the wrong reasons, like getting back with exes or because someone, such as parents told me to do so. Now, looking back - even though penning this realisation is rather late - those weren't valid reasons for being in a relationship. 

Another thing related to relationships is not settling for less than your worth. And I have to thank a few good friends for making me realise this, for it's easy and tempting to settle for less than your worth and getting into relationships you wouldn't quite enjoy in the long run. 'Nuff said there! 

5. Relaxation and time for self


Relaxing. This I believe is a very important lesson and something I hope I will remember for many many years to come. I am generally someone who loves to enjoy some quiet time with nature and easing off the pressure etc. But I had not had the opportunity to do so over the last few months of 2015. And this had me rather tired and low on energy towards the end of December. So much so that, my vacation - or whatever was left of it - was not sufficient time for me to relax. And the one day I could actually squeeze out to head out of the city, made me realise how much I need time to myself away from people, just to be with nature. And I won't even get into not getting a decent vacation. :( 

Friday, 27 November 2015

Beat

There are songs in my head
So I couldn't care less.
The world is at my feet
As I will be moving to the beat.

There's friendly banter in the background,
And people reading in their seats.
Typing on the keys
And swaying to the beat.

Footsteps heard in the corridors
Laughter echoing off the walls. 
Rain pattering on rooftops
Creating a funky beat. 


Monday, 16 November 2015

To complement, not complete

Have we established the fact that I am a girl? Well, if not, I am. Now that's off the way, I have heard many people, irrespective of their gender say they found the perfect partner, their better half. The one person who completes them. 

Now I don't know about the few of those who say that, but I for one (and some others I know for that matter) have a problem with this term 'better half'. Do they imply by saying their significant other is better than them, that the one saying so, is in some way, worse? Or that they are the lesser being of the two? When put that way, wouldn't you have a problem with those words?

I don't believe you should get into a relationship to find a better or worse person in anyone. You should accept the significant other as they are. A human being. And this human being shouldn't have to complete you either. And with that, I come to my other point. 

Why do people say their significant other 'completes' them? Does this mean they are not whole? Or that they lack a part of them? If that were the case, is it then wise to embark on a relationship? I mean if you're is incomplete, then shouldn't you be investing more into who you are and figuring out what you want, rather than in a relationship, trying to understand and make the relationship work? 

I do understand that nothing is perfect. But I also know that expecting someone else to be your happiness, to generate it and be the source of it can be detrimental. What if that source goes away - and I sincerely hope it doesn't happen to anyone, but what if? Where does that leave you? At rock bottom for sure. For you don't know what makes you happy alone as you have invested and are dependent on your happiness from a single source, a person, your significant other. 

So, I say, go figure yourself out first. Understand what makes you tick and what makes you happy. Learn to be at peace with yourself. Enjoy some solitary time. It's by being alone and truly alone that you learn to look within and know yourself. Trust me, this journey is as important as any other. For in knowing who you are, you learn to understand what you want in another. A partner. A significant other. 

When you know yourself, you know your happiness is depended on you, your own actions and not anyone else's. You learn to be a complete person, irrespective of having someone significant in your life or not. You are at peace. 

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With this peace comes understanding. This understanding leads you to knowing what to look for in your partner. You understand that the 'other' won't complete you, as you are a complete human being on your own. You then understand that the 'other' will only complement and add beauty to your life. That they too are complete on their own and thus will only inspire you towards greatness. And this isn't fluff or a fairy tale. It's all true and you will know when you find that person who complements you and makes you strive to achieve your completion all on your own. 

Ladies and gentlemen (because I am hoping I have a gender balanced readership) don't let the source of your happiness be an external
person. Don't rely on another to make you happy. Let happiness come from within you, and trust me, you won't regret it. 

So all the best and let that happiness shine from within. Peace. 

Assumptions vs Curiosity

I have recently been told that I am too curious, that I question things too much and that I assume things. I don't know what to make of these. So I have reflected on this thought and I have come to realise that I have always been interested in the 'Why's. Why some thing happens the way it does, why people behave the way they do, why... why... why....?

I, of course decided to take this in a positive light. It appears people have mistaken my curiosity towards life to assumptions. My curiosity generally doesn't mean any harm to anyone as I merely want to know whether some thing I have assumed is either prove it right or wrong. It's a personal thing. 

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This curiosity is innate to me. It's probably my curiosity towards life that makes me want to know and understand how and why things happen. My curiosity is varied. For example it can be towards wanting to know why my dog behaves a certain way in wanting to know why a certain concept is what it is to understanding the communication styles between people. 

And this curiosity is most likely why I am doing what I am doing right now. I am engaged in research and I am really happy doing so, as I get to unearth the 'why's. And in research, the 'why' is generally referred to as the hypothesis. :) As an academic and a researcher, our main purpose is to find a reasons to embark on research. A gap that needs to be filled. 

So I'd say this curiosity of mine is working fine for me in my career as I get to question away, until such time I prove something right or wrong. And that's what research is all about! You prove a theory, a thought, a concept etc true or false. 

Oh! I may have a reason and a valid job to be curious or question things, but do remember, a person's background and previous experience too plays a major part in these things. 

Monday, 9 November 2015

A State of Peaceful Happiness


Content. What does this mean? It's a word that's been constantly flung around by a lot people. People say they are content or they are not. But what do they really mean?

The Oxford English Dictionary says it is being "in a state of peaceful happiness". And this is something I have been feeling of late. I am really very happy about myself and my life. I know most will gasp at this, but that's how it is. I'm just happy. 

It's simply being satisfied. Satisfied about how things currently are and how things are progressing. It's a state of not worrying about the future. A state where I'm confident about how things will turn out. It's also a state where I have come to terms with the past. I'm neither saying I had a horrible past nor that it was a smooth walk. But I have dealt with the bad experiences, learnt from those mistakes, and come to where I am today; the present. And I suppose, this, makes me happy. 

Being content probably also means you will not let day-to-day problems affect your attitude towards life. That you will take the problem by the horns and will attempt to understand why it either bothers you or what affect its pros and / or cons will have on your life. It's the understanding that comes with it.  

I also think being content has a lot to do with who you are. Raise a few eyebrows and give me a quizzical look, perhaps? What I mean is, coming to terms with your individuality. Understanding who you are. And this is something i have been doing for a while, and I believe I am starting to see the benefits of it. It doesn't mean I am obnoxious and unpleasant about what I know about myself or my self-confidence. 

Contentment is also probably a state of self-awareness. It means, I understand my strengths and weaknesses and know what qualities I need to improve and what I need to relieve myself of. 

So this is my take on being content. It's probably a feeling. I don't know the exact word/s. I don't think phase would do justice to it. But I know I intend to let this last for a long time. 

Hope you also find contentment in your life. And hope the little insight from mine will help you towards achieving it. 
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