First Timers in India

• Travel by bus not knowing where it will take me [long story]
• Take a ride from a stranger [I still can’t believe I did that]
• Get lost in a crowded city, thanks to wrong directions by the police
• Go running for about 2-3 km a day
• Sit at a bus stop for an hour waiting for a bus to come
• Buying so many books, that I was nearly broke
• Live on mostly fruits and bread for about 2 months
• Known as the sportiest of the DJs
• Get fever 5 times in 3 months and have constant stomach problems *sigh*
• Identified as a ‘tech freak’
• Have interactions and more which were interesting with non- Sri Lankans :P
• Eat at a restaurant, next door to a brothel =/
• Travel for 12 hours in a bus
• Use an outdoor toilet :P
• See 10 peacocks’ and a fox in a single day
• Visit Bodhgaya and walk the ground that Lord Budda walked on
• See places that I have studied for history and Buddhist Civilisation
• Visit other religious worship places like the Golden Temple-Seikh and a Jain Temple-Sarnath
• Travel for more than 13 hours by train, in a sleeper
• Sleeping for approximately 10 hours in a train :D
• Travel at night in bandit ridden places
• Went in an ambulance
• Have an adopted global family- Mauritius mom, Iraq elder brother, two Nepal elder brothers, Tanzanian elder sister, Sri Lankan elder sister, two Mauritian younger sisters
• Travel a lot in India, covering 4 states in the time being I was there

Waiting

He talks.

Does he know of what he speaks?

I can hear the noise.

But does he mean what he says?

I sit,

Waiting for him to make sense.

Who am I? I start to think,

No knowing where the thoughts will end.

Will he ever stop,

These words of no weight?

Will he ever make sense,

To finally tell me, what needs to be told?

Heavenly Light

Heaven looked at me,

Calling me,

Guiding me.

It shone its light at me,

Showing me,

Lighting my way.

The skies looked beautiful,

Soft and feathery

With wonderful yellow hues.

I felt transported,

Standing there

Looking at the heavenly light

Shinning welcomingly.

At that moment,

I knew I was in heaven!

Light & Darkness

Black with fury
Like all hell hath broken loose
The white light shines
Like it pleadeth mercy.
The darkness and gale
Knows no kindness,
The shimmer of light and the soft clouds
Smile kindly from the heavens above.
Dark waters warns of dangers
Yet the cotton clouds emit comfort.
The waves crash on the rocks
While the wind blows lovingly on the face.

Lost Soul

Conversations with friends are truly intriguing! I can safely say that! I wonder if this has happened to anyone else, where you are of the assumption that a certain friend has their life and everything to do with it, all sorted out and then end up knowing they are far from it.

It's quite eye opening, when you hear that one of your good friends considers them self a 'lost soul' when all along you thought they were quite settled in life and was content with it. I don't know how to express my shock. I mean how does that happen? If everyone around them thinks they are 'settled' and to the contrary they are not?!

This had me thinking throughout the night that we are all such lost souls- so to say. Aren't we all trying in vain to figure out who we are and what we are doing? Are we not trying to find out the purpose in life? I for one know that I have no clue at all as to what I want to do with my life. I suppose I am the most 'lost' person I know! Apparently they are equally lost people around me, but looks like I've not seen it or could it have been that I chose not to see it? How ever it may be, the fact at hand remains that we-as human beings- are more lost than we give room to think.

Once a friend told me, if you're happy with the way you're living and if you can smile at the end of a long day, then you should be content with your life. I believe there is weight in what she said. For if we can't go to sleep at night and have a peaceful night's sleep, then there is something to worry about.

I think i have gone astray from where I started off. I, as an individual, have stopped trying to figure my soul. I have decided that I will remain in this state of being 'lost'. It's more to do with my peace of mind, than anything else. I feel that I am and I can enjoy life more this way, than having to figure out where I want to go and what I want to do with my life.

I think being 'lost' in life, has its pros and I am going to indulge in this 'lost-ness' more and more to come!