Waiting

He talks.

Does he know of what he speaks?

I can hear the noise.

But does he mean what he says?

I sit,

Waiting for him to make sense.

Who am I? I start to think,

No knowing where the thoughts will end.

Will he ever stop,

These words of no weight?

Will he ever make sense,

To finally tell me, what needs to be told?

Heavenly Light

Heaven looked at me,

Calling me,

Guiding me.

It shone its light at me,

Showing me,

Lighting my way.

The skies looked beautiful,

Soft and feathery

With wonderful yellow hues.

I felt transported,

Standing there

Looking at the heavenly light

Shinning welcomingly.

At that moment,

I knew I was in heaven!

Light & Darkness

Black with fury
Like all hell hath broken loose
The white light shines
Like it pleadeth mercy.
The darkness and gale
Knows no kindness,
The shimmer of light and the soft clouds
Smile kindly from the heavens above.
Dark waters warns of dangers
Yet the cotton clouds emit comfort.
The waves crash on the rocks
While the wind blows lovingly on the face.

Lost Soul

Conversations with friends are truly intriguing! I can safely say that! I wonder if this has happened to anyone else, where you are of the assumption that a certain friend has their life and everything to do with it, all sorted out and then end up knowing they are far from it.

It's quite eye opening, when you hear that one of your good friends considers them self a 'lost soul' when all along you thought they were quite settled in life and was content with it. I don't know how to express my shock. I mean how does that happen? If everyone around them thinks they are 'settled' and to the contrary they are not?!

This had me thinking throughout the night that we are all such lost souls- so to say. Aren't we all trying in vain to figure out who we are and what we are doing? Are we not trying to find out the purpose in life? I for one know that I have no clue at all as to what I want to do with my life. I suppose I am the most 'lost' person I know! Apparently they are equally lost people around me, but looks like I've not seen it or could it have been that I chose not to see it? How ever it may be, the fact at hand remains that we-as human beings- are more lost than we give room to think.

Once a friend told me, if you're happy with the way you're living and if you can smile at the end of a long day, then you should be content with your life. I believe there is weight in what she said. For if we can't go to sleep at night and have a peaceful night's sleep, then there is something to worry about.

I think i have gone astray from where I started off. I, as an individual, have stopped trying to figure my soul. I have decided that I will remain in this state of being 'lost'. It's more to do with my peace of mind, than anything else. I feel that I am and I can enjoy life more this way, than having to figure out where I want to go and what I want to do with my life.

I think being 'lost' in life, has its pros and I am going to indulge in this 'lost-ness' more and more to come!

Life: intricate or not?

A recent conversation with a friend of mine got me thinking if we really know what life has in store for us! I mean seriously, we have these dreams and aspire certain things in life. Surely there are some of us who make elaborate plans in life too-I am not guilty of that however. What got me thinking was, how does one know how these plans will turn out? I mean there's no guarantee of any kind to let us know that what we wish for will come true. Even with all that, we still do, do we not?

A few years back-I can't recall what led me to do this- I stopped making plans and started going with the flow. Yes, it can also be interpreted as I-let-life-take-me-where-it-wants-me. Having said that, I haven't really lost out much on 'life'. Far from it, I would say. I think I have enjoyed more of 'life' due its spontaneity! I am surprised and that is exciting!

See for me, plans, however minute they maybe have a tendency to just melt where they started. So after much trial and error- more error at that- I learned not to keep my hopes up on what I want and let myself go with the flow! This little method of mine has brought me along way. It has kept disappointments at bay-simply because I am not expecting anything, so there are no standards set to be disappointed about and I am stress free and take the utmost pleasure in being surprised caught off guard! However, it goes without saying that I still do come across my fare share of disappointments, but at least it too takes me by surprise so, I can laugh it off should I choose to!

For me, life is truly complicated I would say-cliche I agree. I don't want to figure it out. I just want to enjoy the time I'm living while I am at it. I have made up my mind to enjoy the intricacies and the mysteries it brings my way and take it with a stride. What more can I do right? If this helps me to be happy, then why the hell not?